I have been Kidding myself!!

Ok, so for the last few months I really haven't been working the Dave way! I just have been Kidding myself that I was doing it. We have added debt then get rid of debt! It started back in March when I bought my laptop. So i'm starting all over!! I have sat down and wrote out all our bills again. Ugh. that was not fun at all! Since we added a few medical bills and loan we got form michaels grandpa so we could buy a truck for my husband that he hardly ever uses since gas is so damn expensive! I we also got behind on the daycare bill since I always for get to write out the check since I had been haveing some health issues. So I sat down and paid every single thing that need to be paid until we get paid on friday I empty our EF and empty our chirstmas fun. so everything is curent! I also started a new budget! I'm going to stick to it. Damn its so dran hard. I hate this!!!
So here goes our new Debt
OB/GYN 82.80 / 82.80
FL Medical 841.69/min 70.00
Grandpa 1500.00 / 100.00
Best Buy 2104.25/ 50.00
Chase 2666.92 / 74.00
Discover 3126.54/ 63.00
GTE CC 5889.54/ 118.00
HSBC 7796.04 / 100.00
GTE CP 8849.35 / 239.00
New Grand Total 32,857.13

This sucks. O well, I'm sure it could be alot worst! I'm going to see if I can get to were we live on just my husband check! witch is about 1100.00 evey 2 weeks. My pay is about 600.00 every 2 weeks. we get paid on the same day since we work for the same company. So looks like we are just going to start all over like we did last September. Ugh. I'm just so mad at my self. I so wanted to have 1/2 the debt paid off before the end of the year so i could be a stay at home mom. but that sure dosn't look like thats going to happen. plus we are TTC # 2. I don't think thats a good Idea now since how much debt we have. becuase I know as sooon as we have the baby i'm going to want to stay home home. Ok. enought of my venting. I know i'm being really hard on my self. here to a New beginning!!!! Again!!!